It has been a while since I posted… It is now July and I am 8 months into treatment and 1 year out from my initial symptoms.  There is something that has happened within my body over this last month, something that I thought would NEVER come!

My last post was about the ups and downs and at that time, I thought I was feeling great… but, the ups and downs continued for me… just when I thought I was on a good stretch, a crash would come.  Stress at work, too much activity, not eating right… forgetting to take my supplements… STRESS!  And I found myself wondering, waiting, hoping for it all to just go away and to be better! I was tired of the tears, tired of the looks from my staff and friends that told me that I looked terrible!  Pale, ashen, cold, tired, exhausted!!!  Heck, one of my best friends and her husband moved 1800 miles closer to me and I couldn’t find the strength to go and see her for a month!  I was sad that the downs came and the ups weren’t coming fast enough!!  I allowed myself to rest, MADE myself rest.  Listened to my body crying for certain nutrients and kept walking the path that I have been on… That’s what you do with Adrenal Fatigue!  You ride the wave and stay on the path!

THEN, all of a sudden, a switch flipped and these GREAT days came!  They were “I feel  like NORMAL ME” days!!!  And they went on and on….and on!   I felt so good that I finally saw my friend who moved closer! We went for a hike with her and her family and I wasn’t exhausted the next day! WHAT??  I felt so good that week, I ran 3 miles 3 times and the next weekend I played cardio tennis, went on a longer hike, and ran more!  Another hike the next weekend, dinner out to celebrate my birthday, and this last weekend, a full weekend away in the mountains.  WHAT?????  I no longer craved my weekends to rest and sleep and chill… And I have been able to begin to rejoin my life!  I HAVE MY LIFE BACK!!!!!  I can schedule things a week out and not worry how I’m going to feel.  I trust that I’m going to feel good!!! It is a totally awesome feeling!  A close friend cautioned me to enjoy it and remember it when the bottom dropped…  I told him that I felt like this time was different.  Somehow, my body feels stronger.  Feels more stable… like the foundation has been built and set and the reserves are coming back to life.  Like I could get hit with some stress and keep going and not knocked out by it!

Now hear me… I have had the ups and downs… BUT… the ups are lasting weeks and the downs are lasting hours!  This last Saturday while we were away in the mountains for a girls trip and business training, I woke up in the morning and knew it was an AF kinda day, and I know what triggered it!  I laid in bed most of the day and around 6 pm, as is normal with AF, started to get my energy back.  So, what did I do?  WELL…. I DANCED and drank and had an exhilarating night with some of my closest friends!  I PARTIED!  YUP! PAAARRRTTTIEEED!!!  And I thought I’d pay for it… guess what… I DIDN’T!!!!  I woke up the next day ready to go hiking and enjoy the time away!  This week after, I’ve been a little tired but that’s normal when you’re away and expend energy like I did.  There was comfort knowing that my friends also were a bit tired through the week… and reassurance that I AM GETTING BACK TO NORMAL!!!!!

Ah, sweet friends…  what perspective the month of June gave me.  I am so grateful for this journey. Every living step of it.  It is changing me in ways I never knew I needed to.  I wouldn’t wish AF on anyone I know… but I am so thankful it has come into my life!

I now know several people who have been diagnosed since I began this blog site.  My prayer for you all is that you find rest! That you find peace! That you find surrender for this moment in time, when your body needs it most! It is crying for rest, crying for healing, and crying for the nutrients and self care to heal.  Most of all, it is crying for time! With the passing of time, and of each day, trust that healing is happening… and that one day, when you are close to a year out, you will celebrate 1 month of feeling good!  You will dance! You will drink! You will have an exhilarating night! And you will again be grateful for this journey and what it is teaching you!

Stay on the path… new growth is happening!